An example of how my extreme need to please others and knack for not giving a shit often come to be at odds with one another:
I feel very guilty for not going out with a bunch of my coworkers tonight to wish a fellow employee off as he makes his way into the real world. And by guilty I mean, GUILTY.
Yet....
I couldn't care less than two craps about most of my coworkers, who I have no real relationships with. Going out with them, is no longer fun.
I don't care. But I do.
Isn't that the worst?
At least I got a ton of progress done on my huge senior thesis paper. Oh, who am I kidding....
That's what Sunday is for!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Yikes!
I am currently:
1. On my 6th (very strong) cup of coffee of the evening. So strong in fact, I can actually feel the coffee grinds swirling around in my mouth
2. Unable to hold a pen with a steady hand, due to the amount of caffeine in my system
3. Learning a semester's worth of Sociology terms, themes, and ideas
4. Getting ready to take my second to last final of my college career....TOMORROW!
Yikes!
1. On my 6th (very strong) cup of coffee of the evening. So strong in fact, I can actually feel the coffee grinds swirling around in my mouth
2. Unable to hold a pen with a steady hand, due to the amount of caffeine in my system
3. Learning a semester's worth of Sociology terms, themes, and ideas
4. Getting ready to take my second to last final of my college career....TOMORROW!
Yikes!
Friday, December 5, 2008
A real blog?
What could be a blog anymore, with me not mentioning the drama at work? I suppose those outside of my family haven't heard the recent updates, so here goes:
- "C" had a miscarriage. A very sad thing indeed, but I'm sure "R" was thrilled.
- "C's" miscarriage was announced at work, in front of "N" who still had never even been officially informed about the entire situation.
- When "N" confronted "R" he denied it. Matter of fact, he said "C" was lying about being pregnant.
- Two days later, "R" decided to 'come clean' with "N". He told her that "C" just thinks they're dating and is always hanging on him. He also mentioned they 'only had sex once' and that's when "C" got pregnant. Oh, and he and his mom believe she did it on purpose.
-Three days later, "R" introduces "C" to nearly every customer at the restaurant as his girlfriend. Right in front of "N".
It's never ending I tell you! I also found out two more of my coworkers (who have never been mentioned on this blog) have been sleeping with one another. And of coures, that involved cheating on their significant others as well. Niceee. I work in a fucking whore house. Do you see why I turn to Spaghetti Cat? He's the only comfort I have in this crazy, mixed-up, sexually charged world.
Other than the work dramz, life has been steadily ticking along. My thanksgiving break was alright, but disrupted by my nagging conscious to work on all my homework. And this past week has been filled with numerous papers, little to no sleep, and mountains of stress.
And yet.....I haven't wanted it to end.
I only have THREE days of class left. And then a few finals and final papers. And then? I'm DONE with college. Yikes!
It is insanely unbelievable that I will be student teaching next semester. And while I'll be SUPA busy, I'm hoping blogging will serve as a good tool for stress relief. I just can't believe it though. I am FINISHED with college. I know I say it all the time, but where has the past four years gone??
What a bittersweet moment. I'm terribly sad to leave a place I've come to love. I tear up just thinking about leaving all the great friends I've made. And of course I'm going to miss the days of skipping class and no real responsibility. And yet....I have this huge new chapter opening in my life. And I get to go into my dream career.
Now, if only I could meet Spaghetti Cat, and my life would be complete. :)
Have a good weekend everyone!!!
- "C" had a miscarriage. A very sad thing indeed, but I'm sure "R" was thrilled.
- "C's" miscarriage was announced at work, in front of "N" who still had never even been officially informed about the entire situation.
- When "N" confronted "R" he denied it. Matter of fact, he said "C" was lying about being pregnant.
- Two days later, "R" decided to 'come clean' with "N". He told her that "C" just thinks they're dating and is always hanging on him. He also mentioned they 'only had sex once' and that's when "C" got pregnant. Oh, and he and his mom believe she did it on purpose.
-Three days later, "R" introduces "C" to nearly every customer at the restaurant as his girlfriend. Right in front of "N".
It's never ending I tell you! I also found out two more of my coworkers (who have never been mentioned on this blog) have been sleeping with one another. And of coures, that involved cheating on their significant others as well. Niceee. I work in a fucking whore house. Do you see why I turn to Spaghetti Cat? He's the only comfort I have in this crazy, mixed-up, sexually charged world.
Other than the work dramz, life has been steadily ticking along. My thanksgiving break was alright, but disrupted by my nagging conscious to work on all my homework. And this past week has been filled with numerous papers, little to no sleep, and mountains of stress.
And yet.....I haven't wanted it to end.
I only have THREE days of class left. And then a few finals and final papers. And then? I'm DONE with college. Yikes!
It is insanely unbelievable that I will be student teaching next semester. And while I'll be SUPA busy, I'm hoping blogging will serve as a good tool for stress relief. I just can't believe it though. I am FINISHED with college. I know I say it all the time, but where has the past four years gone??
What a bittersweet moment. I'm terribly sad to leave a place I've come to love. I tear up just thinking about leaving all the great friends I've made. And of course I'm going to miss the days of skipping class and no real responsibility. And yet....I have this huge new chapter opening in my life. And I get to go into my dream career.
Now, if only I could meet Spaghetti Cat, and my life would be complete. :)
Have a good weekend everyone!!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I Weep For You
I know it's been two weeks since my last blog, and trust me I have lots to tell. But as the story of my life goes, I need to do a project and paper first. Hopefully by this weekend some normalcy can return to my life and I will blog my heart out!!
Until then, I know you haven't forgotten about my Spaghetti Cat fascination I trust?
Please witness, the greatest thing ever:
"Spaghetti Cat (I weep for you)"
Saturday, November 15, 2008
The Saga Continues...
If you thought things couldn't get anymore awkward between me, my boss "R.", his girlfriend "C.", and his ex-girlfriend (can you call her that if they're still sleeping together?) "N." then you were oh-so-wrong.
Whitney had just arrived at work. She was feeling pretty content, rolling silverware and wishing "N." was working that night to help out with training all of these new kids. Whitney sees "C." approaching, completely unaware of the news she's about to receive.
C: "Well Whitney.....Have you heard the big news???!!!"
Whit: "um, No" (fully expecting the "big news" to be something along the lines of "We have new dishes at the restaurant!")
C: "I'm Pregnant!!!!!"
Whit: (stare blankly at "C" for close to a minute with a frozen smile)...."Nuh-uh"
C: "Yes!"
Whit: (smile falls)....."Wait.....seriously?"
C: "Yes!!"
Whit: (realizes she is acting awkward but just.cant.stop.I.am.so.surprised.) "Well.....um......who......who.....who is the.....who is the da.......um........Do you know.......Do you know who......ummmmmm........" (whitney just.can't.keep.her.mouth.closed. even as "C.'s" expression turns to annoyed and offended.)
C: "YES i know who the dad is!! (annoyed) It's "R." We have been dating for 5 months"!!!
Whit: (still offering inappropriate responses) "How did this happen?!!!?"
C: (still annoyed) "Well Whitney, when a man and a woman get together..."
Whit: "no, no! I know...but, but, but......" (finally, finally Whitney realizes to just shut up. Then awkwardly grabs "C" for a "congratulations" hug)
And Scene.
Yes, another true story. My boss has gotten "C" pregnant. She is 6 weeks, and keeping the child. They told both sets of parents, who were obviously none to pleased. She has told everyone at the restaurant, except for "N" (for obvious reasons).
I would gage "R's" feelings on the matter as this: absolutely horrified. When she was blabbing about it all night, he kept his mouth closed. When I offered him congratulations, he responded "for what?" When he looks at her I see terror and denial in his eyes. It's bad, ooooo is it bad.
The worst thing is, "C" has no idea "R" has still been sleeping with "N" for the past few months. Most of the time "N" turns him down in disgust, but every once in a while she gives in.
So everyone knows except "N". "C" asked me not to tell "N" but I of course called her when I got home. It may not have been my place, especially with this kind of secret, but I did so for two reasons.
1. The only reason "C" didn't want me to tell "N" is because "R" doesn't want "N." to find out. I'm pretty sure the reason "C" told me in the first place was so "N' would find out.
2. I'm friends and have loyalty to "N". I can't let her find out from someone else at work, and make her have to deal with those emotions at work. I wanted to give her time. Chances are she would have heard someone talking about it- and shit would hit the fan. I owe her more than that.
So yes, just when I thought my work couldn't become any more like a soap opera, it does.
God help us.
Whitney had just arrived at work. She was feeling pretty content, rolling silverware and wishing "N." was working that night to help out with training all of these new kids. Whitney sees "C." approaching, completely unaware of the news she's about to receive.
C: "Well Whitney.....Have you heard the big news???!!!"
Whit: "um, No" (fully expecting the "big news" to be something along the lines of "We have new dishes at the restaurant!")
C: "I'm Pregnant!!!!!"
Whit: (stare blankly at "C" for close to a minute with a frozen smile)...."Nuh-uh"
C: "Yes!"
Whit: (smile falls)....."Wait.....seriously?"
C: "Yes!!"
Whit: (realizes she is acting awkward but just.cant.stop.I.am.so.surprised.) "Well.....um......who......who.....who is the.....who is the da.......um........Do you know.......Do you know who......ummmmmm........" (whitney just.can't.keep.her.mouth.closed. even as "C.'s" expression turns to annoyed and offended.)
C: "YES i know who the dad is!! (annoyed) It's "R." We have been dating for 5 months"!!!
Whit: (still offering inappropriate responses) "How did this happen?!!!?"
C: (still annoyed) "Well Whitney, when a man and a woman get together..."
Whit: "no, no! I know...but, but, but......" (finally, finally Whitney realizes to just shut up. Then awkwardly grabs "C" for a "congratulations" hug)
And Scene.
Yes, another true story. My boss has gotten "C" pregnant. She is 6 weeks, and keeping the child. They told both sets of parents, who were obviously none to pleased. She has told everyone at the restaurant, except for "N" (for obvious reasons).
I would gage "R's" feelings on the matter as this: absolutely horrified. When she was blabbing about it all night, he kept his mouth closed. When I offered him congratulations, he responded "for what?" When he looks at her I see terror and denial in his eyes. It's bad, ooooo is it bad.
The worst thing is, "C" has no idea "R" has still been sleeping with "N" for the past few months. Most of the time "N" turns him down in disgust, but every once in a while she gives in.
So everyone knows except "N". "C" asked me not to tell "N" but I of course called her when I got home. It may not have been my place, especially with this kind of secret, but I did so for two reasons.
1. The only reason "C" didn't want me to tell "N" is because "R" doesn't want "N." to find out. I'm pretty sure the reason "C" told me in the first place was so "N' would find out.
2. I'm friends and have loyalty to "N". I can't let her find out from someone else at work, and make her have to deal with those emotions at work. I wanted to give her time. Chances are she would have heard someone talking about it- and shit would hit the fan. I owe her more than that.
So yes, just when I thought my work couldn't become any more like a soap opera, it does.
God help us.
Allean Griffith
For Kelli.
To one of my greatest friends of all time, I'm so sorry you had to lose your Grammy.
I will get you a hard copy soon.
I love you!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
College Vs. Real World
My transition into the Real World about to happen has made me start thinking....
Specifically about the Pros and Cons of University Life and the Pros and Cons of my soon-to-be-teaching world.
College
Pro: I get to enjoy refreshing weather everyday on my looong walks to class.
Con: Sometimes that weather isn't so refreshing (like today) I wind up in class with a wet winter jacket, soaking jeans, shoes with cold puddles in them, and matted hair. It's always fun to sit in a classroom on a day like this.....wet dog anyone?
Real World
Pro: Ha ha haha I get to drive to class...not have to walk in 2 feet of snow and -30 degree weather!
Con: No more frequent exercising. And my walking is my iPod time!
College
Pro: Lots of little breaks throughout my day, giving me time to relax, nap, or do whatever my heart desires
Con: God-awful teachers, God-awful homework assignments at night, and no damn free time!
Real World
Pro: True, I will be at my "job" for about 9 hours straight, but when I'm done, I'm done. No more freaking papers to write!!!!!
Con: God-awful students, God-awful lesson planning, and no damn free time!
College
Pro: I actually enjoy learning, and school isn't that bad.....
Con: I CAN'T STAND BEING A STUDENT ANYMORE!!
Real World
Pro: I'm going into a job I LOVE, which will make every day, a special day.
Con: How much can one really love a real-world job?
Specifically about the Pros and Cons of University Life and the Pros and Cons of my soon-to-be-teaching world.
College
Pro: I get to enjoy refreshing weather everyday on my looong walks to class.
Con: Sometimes that weather isn't so refreshing (like today) I wind up in class with a wet winter jacket, soaking jeans, shoes with cold puddles in them, and matted hair. It's always fun to sit in a classroom on a day like this.....wet dog anyone?
Real World
Pro: Ha ha haha I get to drive to class...not have to walk in 2 feet of snow and -30 degree weather!
Con: No more frequent exercising. And my walking is my iPod time!
College
Pro: Lots of little breaks throughout my day, giving me time to relax, nap, or do whatever my heart desires
Con: God-awful teachers, God-awful homework assignments at night, and no damn free time!
Real World
Pro: True, I will be at my "job" for about 9 hours straight, but when I'm done, I'm done. No more freaking papers to write!!!!!
Con: God-awful students, God-awful lesson planning, and no damn free time!
College
Pro: I actually enjoy learning, and school isn't that bad.....
Con: I CAN'T STAND BEING A STUDENT ANYMORE!!
Real World
Pro: I'm going into a job I LOVE, which will make every day, a special day.
Con: How much can one really love a real-world job?
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Now is Our Time
Yes We Can!Yes We Did!
Yes We Will!
Green Street after Obama's win:
Wish I could have been in Chicago!
What a historic night. My celebrations were slightly minimized because we learned my roommate's extremely close Grandma was a few hours from passing away. Yet that didn't take away from the joy we all felt and the absolute pride I had when I woke up this morning.
2008
Wish I could have been in Chicago!
What a historic night. My celebrations were slightly minimized because we learned my roommate's extremely close Grandma was a few hours from passing away. Yet that didn't take away from the joy we all felt and the absolute pride I had when I woke up this morning.
2008
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